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i hate the days before Aunt Flow. i have cramps and back hurts this time. i tell you its something new every month. sucks ass.

anyway i haven’t talked to my mama in a week. she pissed me off last friday. well i’m really not pissed i just don’t care anymore. saturday, the 21st was NuNeice’s birthday. Cory was having fam over and thats it. so of course my dad was gonna be there. so my mama said she wasn’t going. i get into a shouting match with her about how stupid and ignotant she is being. she is not there to see her baby daddy. she is there to celebrate her grand daughter’s 2nd birthday. so after much debate she says that if my dad is going to be at any family functions that any of us have to not invite her. thats all she had to say to me. i’m done playing the baby ass game with her. grant it my dad was wrong and i wouldn’t want to be around his homewreckin wife either but damn. its been 7 years. you said you forgave. so get over it. its not like he was the bomb diggity anyway damn way. i mean for real… what did she really lose beside her security? nothing. security is a big thing when you’ve been living off of someone for 30 years but damn you a big gurl. you picked yourself up.. dusted yourself off and have done pretty good for yourself. so WTF! i’m not saying she has to make friendly with them but shit ignore them for your grand children. either you want to be appart of their milestones/holidays or you don’t suck it up. i mean are you really trying to alienate yourself. cause guess what… i live to far and it will be very easy for me to do so. so she gets pissy and feels that i was out of line. whatever. i’m done. i’ve not included my dad for the past 8 years because of this mess. i’m not gonna do it anymore.

then we get on the subject of a scale i brought to her last summer. it was mine for a week then hubby told me he had bought a better one so i gave it to her. so it was actually brand new when i gave it to her. she accused me of bringing it to her broke… WTH would i do that? if it was broken why didn’t she tell me that last summer??? she argued me down. i was too through. i’m so sick of her.

she doesn’t want to be around then she won’t. i’ll invite her to whatever functions i have and let her decided if shes gonna come or not. but thats it. and i’m not wasting my gas to go see her anymore if thats how shes gonna treat me. oh and do you knew she had the nerve to say that she had some shitty daughters?? she ain’t seen shitty.

damn, damn, DAMN!!!

my mama is reverting back to being a damn teen! why did she wait till the last month of her unemployment to start looking for a job? she has only applied for 1 job since Dec. and this 1 job was told to her by her BFF. AND the thing about it is is like 5 mintues from MY house but 45 minutes (if that might be more) from hers.

*blank stare*

why the hell would you apply for a job that is so far from your house when you really don’t have to? its not like there aren’t jobs around where she lives. its not like she plans on moving out here anytime soon cause she has had 7 months to get her house prepared and put on the market. but she didn’t do it. hasn’t done a damn thing for the past 7 months but sit on her ass.

so about 3 weeks ago she asked Twin to get her an application at the DMV where her BFF saw the “help wanted” sign. so Twin gets it for her. then mom ask me to find the number for the DMV cause she doesn’t have a phone book for the area i live in… YES, i am that far from her. we have our own phone book, phone company, and it cost long distance to call here. so i look for it and can’t find it in the phone book but i do find it online (which she could have done). so a week goes by and she calls me telling me it was a recording. i was like ok. whatever. so today, a week later, we got on the subject of her having to find a job soon. then she says that i didn’t bother to look for the number again. *blank stare* last time i recall i wasn’t looking for a job. so i say well i didn’t know i was supposed to look again. then she says well i told you it was a recording. i’m like AND! so i get to looking again and finally find it in the phone book. she says thats the same one i gave her from the net. big surprise there. i then ask her what she is needing to call them for. she says she wants to know what their procedure is for hiring cause no one has called her. (like she was the only one applying and they told her they would call) and what would they be hiring to do. because Twin didn’t ask what the job had entailed(what does Twin care she didn’t want the job!!). now mind you my mom turned in the app herself. so i ask why she didn’t ask when she went up there to turn the app in. she said they were closing. i say SO! end of that. then she ask if i could call information to get the number and if they charge. because she has Von.age and don’t know what they charge. well i have a new company that i am not familiar with and don’t know if they charge either. in other words i’m not finding out. so then she ask if i could call information on my cell. WTH is wrong with your phone/ cell that you can’t call??? your fingers ain’t broke! damn! so i say i’m not calling anybody on my cell cause i have a $300 dollar bill that i have to pay cause i ran it up when i didn’t have phone or internet service. so i haven’t been using my phone for NOTHING! so then i ask her if she can’t just call the DMV by her and get the number. she claims that she thinks they won’t be willing to give out that kind of information… i’m sorry but did you at least try??? nope. so then she says i (meaning me) should call the DMV in the next county over to get the number… HELLO!!! not trying to get a job. so i ask her why she can’t call them? she knows what information she wants better than i do. so basically i will have to go up the street to get the number cause i know shes not gonna do it. which is probably what she wants me to do anyway. i just cannot believe how immature she is acting. i mean i have always looked up to my mom because of how strong she is. but she is acting like a brat. pissin me off. she better get on the ball before she can’t pay her bills and they evict her ass.. cause she can’t come live with me. and neither can Twin and her crew.

What the??

we had a free weekend for movies this weekend as i am sure everybody did.  friday night we watched Bla.ck Sna.ke Mo.an.. What a DUMB movie.  i didn’t want to see it when it came out at the movies.  but hubby was watching it so i watched it with him.  OMG!!!  that was a stupid movie.  it didn’t make any sense.  maybe i missed the whole point in why they felt it necessary to make it a movie.  but it was pretty pointless.  so i’m watching it thinking… this has got to be a Quin.tin Tara.ntino cause dammit i don’t get it.  so at the end i’m watching the credits and it said Jo.hn Sing.elton!!!  i was very surprised that he would produce such a sucky movie..  n-e-way how was everyones weekend?  i got toe up saturday quite by accident.  i was drink Bud Light Lime all night and got a small buzz.  then i had some Malibu Banana something with some banana orange juice…    on the way hoe i thought i was gonna throw up or pass out  or something.  but i didn’t  so as i laid down i was out.  Father’s day was cool.  i made breakfast chocolate chip pancakes.   but i felt like crap until dinner so i just laid around.  ok nothing to talk about.  kids bugging me to get off the computer to feed them!

hey ya’ll

so what does everyone have planned for this weekend???  i’m going to my SIL for a birthday paarty tomorrow and i guess cater to hubby on Sunday…. we’ll shall see.

anyway tomorrow is Niece’s birthday.  Twin said weeks ago that she wanted to take the kids to a water park over here by me for Nieces birthday.  well knowing how flacky she is i didn’t pay her any mind cause shes always changing her mind or claiming shes tired or something.  so we made plans to go to this party.  its kid friendly and there will be a pool.  so what they hey.   she calls me Tuesday asking me what the name of the water park is and how much…*WHAT* shouldn’t you already know that?  shouldn’t you be calling to tell me what time you’ll be at my house to pick up the kids?? and why the hell would i know… i have never been there??!!  so i tell her we have plans and can she do it another day.  she gets mad and ask me what we are doing.  i tell her none of her business.  she always has a problem when i do something with the “white people” even when i wasn’t married to a white man.  she always had a problem when i did something with my white friends instead of her.  so i didn’t tell her.  she kept at it.  so i get off the phone.  she calls the next day. G answers the phone and she ask him.  i grab the phone and ask her what she wants.  don’t intergate my kids.  if i wanted you to know i would tell you.  then she puts Niece on the phone and SHE starts questioning me.  I’m like dammit.  WTF!  got her doing the same crap she does.  poor kids.  that mess irks the hell out of me.

did i tell ya’ll that that heffa is still living with my mother.  she was supposed to be gone in March…  now she claim shes gonna be there till after she has Nephew… my mama said shes gotta be gone before the baby gets here.  shes not gonna leave.  shes too ignorant to know she has out stayed her welcome and if shes not careful she will come home and the locks will be changed and her shit out on the porch.  and when that happens she better take her ass to BD cause she can’t come here.  she can’t go to my dads cause his wife ain’t having it and she can’t go to Cory.  he lub her any way *rolls eyes* damn i wish she lived somewhere else.  i live out here in the boonies and still can’t get away from her.

i’m kind of pissed

ok maybe just a little more than kind of.  enough to keep me from talking to hubby.  we were talking yesterday.  he called me wondering why i hadn’t called all day.  i had actually been doing house work but i wasn’t about to tell him that.  so i said i was doing nothing.  well the other day the kids had been outside and had been playing in the mud.  one of them left a big hand print going up the steps.  i left it there cause i kept forgetting about it so it was there for about 3 days.  so yesterday i decided to just clean all the walls.  its amazing how bad they looked after only living here for a month.  so i get my “Majic Eraser” out and go to work.  figure i would get it now before it gets worse or i’m not in the mood.  so i clean all the walls down stairs and work my way upstairs which aren’t that bad cause no one is ever up there.  so while i’m in a cleaning mood i get the kids to help me straighten up as i sweep and mop floors.  i wash 2 loads of dishes and i’m done.  house looks neat and tidy and it didn’t take a whole lot of effort because it wasn’t bad to begin with… of course we will have to do it all again tomorrow cause thats just how it is with 5 kids.  so this fool starts talking out his ass saying that the house looks a mess and that its gonna look like the other house.  and that i’m doing the same thing here that i did there.  *WTH* of course he said this after i got done with everything and hadn’t seen it yet.

1st… i don’t think i ever tried to keep that other house clean cause it was cluter from day one.

2nd… this is MY house.  why would i do that to my own house?

3rd..  FORGET you!  your ass don’t do squat but bring home a check (not complaining… this is a good thing ).  you don’t do shit with me or the kids.  you got a lot of nerve saying that i’m still doing the same shit.  you still do the same shit.  dammit got me cursing… i said i was gonna quit but dammit i’m pissed.  i mean damn!  what else am i suppose to do?  at least i am making an effort.  i mean 3 years of pure laziness is hard to just break from but dammit i am doing good.  and fuck you if you can’t see that.  i have NEVER done dishes every day… skipping 1 every now and then… but dammit i do.  i sweep everyday.  wipe shit down everyday.  not spending money like i used to.  *WHATEVER*  fucker. shit pisses me off.   and fuck you cause the furniture you were supposed to help me move last weekend is still in the gotdamn garage.  so today i ain’t doing shit.  craft day!

Last day of school… woo hoo!!

i am so glad i have 3 months of not having to wake up at 7 in the morning!!!!! not so happy about having 5 kids around for 3 months… but in August i get rid of 3 instead of 2!! so i have to adjust to school being normal rather than all year round… *sigh* oh well. i can stop wasting money on gas now.

so did you all have a relaxing weekend??? i did. though this was the weekend i was supposed to get my garage cleaned out… knew that wouldn’t happen. so i have asked my step son to help me. he said he would… so its still raining something awful around here. i don’t know what that means… though we had a drought around this time last year. so who knows with this Misery weather. so even though it rained this weekend… well stormed is more like it… it was still hot as hell around here… kids got in the sprinkler than laid out like some white folks….

we also saw this saturday…

and saw this today in my back yard…. i touched it and Lil Man bout jumped out of skin when it jumped!! i fell out laughing. i told him to touch it and he was like no. i got some scary kids. the whole time i was walking towards it, Miss Prissy was yelling at me, “No, mommy don’t!” my kids are funny!

ok i have nothing interesting to say… well i could talk about people but i really don’t feel like getting worked up over someone eles stupidity…. i really could go for some Chinese food right now. i haven’t had any in over a month…

where ya’ll at?

i’m still alive… still unpacking… still not cleaning no floors. so what did ya’ll do for this long weekend. i didn’t really do anything. hubby was SUPPOSE to help me clean out the garage. but instead he decides to go behind me after i slaved sweeping and mopping the floor thrusday… and does it again… grant it that is his forte and he does a hell of a lot better job than i do… i still don’t appreciate him wasting my time by redoing what was already done.. he could have atleast waited till it need it again. so my garage still looks as though someone lives in there cause all the heavy furniture that i can’t move by myself or with G is still in there.

M’s wedding was on the 17th… it was short and sweet and i was looking fly!!! of course i didn’t have my camera… hubby went with me and was a complete bore. didn’t want to do anything nor did he want me to do anything but entertain him. i left him there and went to hang out with my girl. of course i told him about hisself. the best man was flirting with me and the maid of honor. then close to the end of the night he asked me to dance. i declined because of hubby… THEN hubby got up. whatever. damn shame some other man has to show interest in me to get him up. yes he saw the whole thing cause he was watching me like a hawk all damn night. i could just feel his eyes on me. i guess since he thought no black men were hardly there that he had nothing to worry about… he just don’t know. i have been a white boy magnet all my life.

anyway not much else going on. so i will get back to unpacking my craft room and prepare to go pick the kids up. i am so glad i only have to do this for 4 more days! this driving a country mile is for the birds!

that is all

he must be crazy

if he think i’m gonna get on my hands and knees to scrub the kitchen floor… shooo… not me… not this life time…  sheeeeit.  he can do if he want to but iain’t the one!!!

i tried to kill myself

twice in 2 weeks!!!  just playing. well not really.  it was by accident!  the first time i tried to choke to death.  i was chewing a carrot and i don’t know what i was thinking but decided to take a deep ass breathe while chewing… well the carrot went down the wrong pipe and i tried to choke on it.  i coughed and puked till it was clear.  which took about 7 minutes.  seemed like forever.  but i live another day… well 2 more days.  then this morning as i carried an aquarium i tried to slit my wrist… but missed by a half inch.  and it was going up and down instead of side ways too!  and damn if it wouldn’t stop bleeding.  but its all good!

beside me almost killing myself i have had so much drama within the past 2 weeks that will last me till the end of the year.  i am so over it.  money drama… school drama… bill drama… BIL drama… and ant drama…. house drama… phone drama…. internet drama… tv drama… and the most recent  dog drama…  my dog bite the neighbors kids… yes kidssss!  so the dad called the cops and since he was one month over for his rabies shot animal control took Walker.  that didn’t phase me.  then they tell me they have to keep him for 10 days at $15 a day and i have to pay to have him vaccinated… AND i have to pay the hopsital bill for the kids.  you wanna talk about PISSED.  i hate that dog more than ever and now i have to shell out all this money for a dog i hate.  he’ll be lucky if i don’t kill him when i see him again.  i wish i could leave him where he is.  stupid dog.  what a way to come in the neighborhood.

well i have internet now so i’ll be around!

that is all.  oh and BTW  I LOVE MY NEW HOUSE!!!!!!

found a new home

and i made a promise to keep it up… i have to keep it too… its not to someone i wanna break a promise to as there will be hell to pay!!! so anyway we are packing and moving this week. oh joy… well it kind of is because i will no longer be in this house… so that means i’m happy. it has 5 bedrooms and 3.5 baths. walk out basement, fenced in yard. nice quiet neighborhood. i’ve already been looking for fellow negros…. don’t see any yet. but it took me a minute to find the ones here too. come and play!!!!!! so i have to get to packing again. you know it wouldn’t be so bad if aunt flow wasn’t expected. shes messin’ it up for EVERYBODY… cause i am not in the mood.   i don’t know ir or when i’ll be on again… might be a minute and it  might be tomorrow.  i don’t know when i’m gonna cut it off or get it turned back on…depends on what my money is like.  i might have to live without the net for a while!      enjoy the rest of your weekend!